Refocusing – week 3

It’s now been three weeks since my “Refocusing,” and this one’s been complicated. First by the lack of a well-formed, fifth goal, and second…well, let’s just say that trip to the hospital disrupted things just a bit.

But how’d I actually do?

Progress report – week 3

As always, I’m going to go through my goals one by one, give myself a grade in each, then wrap it all up with an overall assessment of how I fell.

I will spend one hour a day exercising and stretching.

Yeah, I sucked at this one. I stretched every day, and even walked home from the hospital on Tuesday, but I basically just slacked off. It’s the cold, mostly. And the wind. I’m a major league wimp when it comes to going out in the cold, and I really have to get past that.

Still, I’m giving myself a C here, instead of a D. Why? Because I frickin’ walked home from the hospital!

I will use a meal planner to eat healthier.

This goal? I’m still kicking its butt all over the place, though not quite as much as I have been. I babied my stomach for most of the week, and that meant dialing down the amount of veggies I consumed. I subbed in things like brown rice and tofu (yes, really), but my body’s really been feeling the lack of green goodness. Still, I held to my calorie count and what I did eat wasn’t unhealthy by any means.

Solid A, here.

I will spend one hour a day on meditation and related practices.

I didn’t meditate either Tuesday or Wednesday. Tuesday because I was in the ER, and Wednesday because my stomach was still hurting bad enough that I didn’t think it was possible to get anything at all out of meditation. I held to those “related practices,” though. Not quite as successfully as the previous two weeks, but I did what I needed to do.

I’m giving myself an A- for this one. Yes, I can be excused for the mid-week distraction, but a slip’s a slip and it deserves some recognition.

I will spend one hour a day with my family members.

I am totally crushing this goal. I’m spending a lot more time with my family members and having more fun doing it. For example, Alex and I spent much of this last weekend playing Magic: The Gathering and watching Stranger Things.

This is an A+ all around.

I will spend one hour a day on photography.

I will create something every day.

I’m officially dinging the “photography” goal in favor of a new, “create something” goal. So, what’s this new goal about?

In order to earn a grade here, I need to create something each day. That could be taking photographs, drawing, writing a poem–it literally does not matter what form the “something” takes, just that I apply my creative energies to something specific, in a tangible, measurable way each and every day.

Since I’m trading out a goal here, I’m not giving myself a grade for the “five-slot” this week. I am giving myself a great big F in following my instincts, though, because I knew the vagueness in my original goal was going to be a problem and I could have saved myself a lot of mental grief if I’d just trusted my gut.


Between the time change and the stomach stuff, this was a rough week for sleep. Add in the lack of veggies and this is the tiredest I’ve been since I started all this. I’ve been a bit slower to get started in the mornings, and there were a couple of days when I really wanted to take a nap. That said, it’s perfectly understandable that I’d feel this way, and I’m still nowhere near as tired as I was before.

Still, this bit of tiredness has made it somewhat difficult to accurately judge things like my mood, level of stress/anxiety, or overall happiness. I feel pretty good, but I think everyone gets a little “worse for wear” when they’re not sleeping properly. There have a been a couple of times this week when my patience has felt a bit thin, but fortunately those times were brief. And let’s be honest, here: it is (once again) perfectly understandable that I’d be a little “off” given the week I’ve had.

As for my weight? I lost another three pounds this week. That brings me down to 241, ten pounds lighter than when I started. I still have a long way to go, but I have absolutely no doubt that I’ll make it to my “primary target” weight of 180.

So, yeah. Still hanging in there and basically loving it. If I can up my veggies, get some more exercise, and adjust to the existential horror of the time change, I should be pretty good next week!

How are you doing?